Why are you so mean to me?
You know, everything you do hurts me in so many ways. Every time you talk to me, the smirk on your face saws me in half. When you pass behind me, the air you move feels like a hurricane inside of me. I’m all messed up. Will you please stop staring at my back, it’s so intense it burns. And when you talk to other girls, the exchange punches me right in the ribs. Most of all, when you look at me, stop sending lightning down my spine, it’s making me weak and it hurts so bad.
I wanna know though, do you even realize how much I hurt because of you? Of course you don’t. You don’t realize that your hands on me could stop the pain, or that your attention is all I’m wishing for. I don’t even want your love, nothing complicated. I just want to be the one you beg to come over when you feel lonely, and needy. That’s all. I want it so much. That’s why I hurt. I want you to want me as much as I do. And when you’ll finally see how good I can make you feel, you’ll never want to get rid of me.
I’ll be the one making you ache from desire. But I won’t ignore you, far from that, I’ll make sure you feel as good as you make me feel so that you never leave and beg me not to either. At this moment, I’ll be completely healed.
Maybe that’s not love that I want with you.
Maybe that’s not what I see in your eyes when you look at me.
Maybe I just want to be wanted and it’s got to be from you.
Maybe you’re the sexiest person I know.
Maybe you think the same.
Maybe you want the same things ;
No love, just laughs
No calls, just urged texts
No feelings, just teasing
No passion, just released tensions
No strings, just sex
Nobody knows, just our bones
Nobody sees, just our sheets
Nobody doubts it, just the sunlit
Nobody feels the secret, just our breaths.
Maybe I really want to do this. Maybe you really want to do this too.
What do you think, wanna try this?
Today I saw you again. I mean well when I say seeing because you, I can only see you. When I heard you would be there, I felt good inside. You know that knot you get in your stomach, well it kept strengthening when I remembered how pretty and desirable you were the last time I observed you. I mean well when I say observing, because it’s from afar that I can appreciate you.
You’re untouchable. Not in the way that you’re rude or cold, actually, everyone likes you. They all come to you, but I would never. Just the thought of you drives me crazy, so talking to you, it just won’t do it. Still, I know your voice. I’ve heard you talk many times when I would pretend not to hear. I know your face even though I’ve never had it close to mine. I know that I know too much. I know it. But I can’t help myself, sorry. Every time we’re at the same place, my attention is on you. Your gaze is all I’m hoping for and when I find you, you’re talking to others. That’s when I realize I’m just another girl in the crowd. I feel so stupid afterwards.
But when I finally meet your eyes, I don’t feel that way any more. It’s only you and me, two strangers sharing precious seconds of their lives together. The dark shade of your eyes meets the peaceful green color of mine. We’re connected. It’s our moment. I love the tension that builds between us when we mix our gazes. I don’t know what it means to you, but for me, I have one thing in mind and you know which one. You know I want you. What makes me feel even better, is that at this very moment, you’re thinking about me and nothing else. The intensity behind that look proves it and the way you look at me is different from the way you do it with others. Maybe the fact that we’re nothing for each other at any time of the day increases the curiosity when our eyes make us one.
You know when I looked up to you leaning on the wall, I caught you starring at me. You didn’t look away and so did I. You seemed to have a lot in minds at this moment. I know you know I want you. This look could make me do anything and you know it. I held your gaze long enough, then turned away. Who knows what I could’ve done. Two strangers that are nothing for each other don’t stare at each other that way. If that’s what we are. I’m left so confused. How can one stranger messes me up like this?
Today was probably the last time our paths met. It’s sadly that I say that all you’ve been to me is a stranger. However, I will never stop looking for your dark and comforting gaze in a crowded place. You’re the stranger I’ve been the closest with.
I hope to see you again.
I love you.
I love absolutely everything about you.The way you talk to others so nicely, the way you walk until the tip of your toes, the way you laugh so easily. I love that you don’t force anything, it just comes naturally. I love how passionate and dedicate you are to what you truly love. I love your honesty and how you respect others’ values. I love how you make me feel. Like I’m worth everything you are. But I know deep down I never will.After all, I’ll try my best to never disappoint you because I can’t take the chance to lose you. I’m sorry, I’ll never be as good to you as you are to me but I can promise you one thing,
no one will ever love you as much as I do and forever will.